I don’t think I’ve ever shared in depth why I really cut my hair. Most people around me who ask know I always tell them, it had to be done. For most of you who’ve been on here long enough know I had very beautiful and healthy hair before my chop I wouldn’t say long because length is relative but for me I had struggled to get to that length and I was super proud of the amazing progress it had made. I loved my hair.
I hope y’all aren’t expecting a deep story about why I did it but here it goes.
I was at a place in my life where I’d gone through the most(maybe I’ll share it with you guys sometime) and I felt I needed a new ‘identity’ not my name or who I was but how I felt about myself. I doubted the person I had become and what it meant to be her and I knew I needed to get out and find ME. I wasn’t that girl, I didn’t recognise her. For the longest time I lived life to please others to be in a place of approval. And I realised I’m the only one who can approve myself. I didn’t need for it to come from anyone else. I just need to know who God had called me to be.
Chopping my hair for me was significant in finding myself. In seeing a new person grow and blossom in allowing a new era in my life and allowing only positivity. As I watch my mane grow this girl grows with it. She wakes up with a smile on a face and finds purpose everyday. She has allowed herself to change( because change is beautiful) I never shed a tear chopping it off but writing this has made me shed some.
It’s been a beautiful journey so far and I’m content with where I’m at right now, no regrets.
My best friend can give her side of the story as she sat right there while it was chopped off she nearly disowned me and I guess shed the tear for me but she knew it had to be done. Now she loves it and she even doubts herself saying it… lol. but I’m glad she was there to hold my hand all the same.
Don’t be afraid of change. Only in change do we grow. So allow yourself to sprout into the person God has called you out to be and get to see the beautiful person that you’ve been hiding inside.
Love and Love